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Russana
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- Name you would like to be called here.
- Russana
- Share your birthday and/or anniversary?
- Birthday is 2-6-54
- What Country you are from?
- United States
- Tell us a little about yourself
- I am a mom of five. I have had FM all my life but it became chronic about 25 yrs ago. It took me seven yrs to get a diagnoses. I am still dealing from the abuse that doctors put me through. I hate going to the doctors and have a panic attack every time I go to a new doctor.
I have been a Christian for 35 yrs and God has brought me through and healed me many times. I have died and been brought back to life. I have also been so close to death so many times I have lost count.
I am a writer but the Lord did not call me out as a writer until a few years ago, so I am still feeling my way through this new calling. The first time I ever told someone I was a writer it felt like putting on an old warm comfy coat a perfect fit.
- HOW we can pray for you? share your Prayer requests
- My family and I have been homeless nine years. I raised most of my family in this situation. My daughter who it fourteen has been homeless since the age of five.
I would like to find our way out of this before she is grown.
We have lived in motels with friends, with family and even lived in a church parking lot for seven months. We are dealing with a lot of fall out from all of this. My son Shawn 22 has been in and out of jail and is a drug addict. He is now in jail and that is probably the safest place for him right now. He gets closer to the Lord when he is in and loses it when he gets back out. He was never in trouble before we became homeless.
My youngest son Justin 22 has been a Type 1 diabetic since the age of four his health is very bad at this point and he had a bad seizure the day after Christmas. I do not believe it was his first but he cannot afford medical insurance so he does not go to the doctor.
My son Ryan lives in N Calif and my husband just moved in with him a few days ago. he will be looking for work up there and hopefully soon bring us back to Calif.
My son Matthew has not spoken to me in six years his dad and him got into it and he beat his dad up. My husband says he has no son but I am his mama he will always have a mama.
I asked my husband for a divorce four yrs ago and the only reason we have not divorced is that I cannot work and support my daughter and I need the medical through his work.
I am still open to the Lords will but I do not believe that He is telling us to stay together.
Right now I want all this to be over with so that we can all move on with our lives
Do You Know Who I Am
Do You Know Who I Am?
Do you know who I am...
Do you care...
Or did you only look how I was dressed...
Did you take the time to confess...
that you think you're better than I.
As you turned your head and sighed...
Did you know what you know what you believe about me is a lie...
My God's name is Jesus I may not live under a roof but I live under His grace
Despite the dirt on my clothes and face He doesn't think I am a disgrace.
Do you know who I am
I am not the only one.
What was it Jesus said
Yet you still turn your head
Wouldn't He have reached out with love instead...
Do you know who I am..
You could be me
Or are you still too blind to see
Russana/2007
Do you know who I am...
Do you care...
Or did you only look how I was dressed...
Did you take the time to confess...
that you think you're better than I.
As you turned your head and sighed...
Did you know what you know what you believe about me is a lie...
My God's name is Jesus I may not live under a roof but I live under His grace
Despite the dirt on my clothes and face He doesn't think I am a disgrace.
Do you know who I am
I am not the only one.
What was it Jesus said
Yet you still turn your head
Wouldn't He have reached out with love instead...
Do you know who I am..
You could be me
Or are you still too blind to see
Russana/2007
Russana's Blog
DARKNESS
Darkness
Time moves slowly… Did I hear promises or did I
hear lies…is this love in disguise
Hope begins to die…fear is laid at my feet
I want to run and hide…panic
twists inside.
Darkness falls, I am hidden I am invisible.
I hear the enemy chuckle.
This feels fatal,I am fearful, I cry and call His name
He is here with me.
I don't have to explain.
I give Him my pain
I look into His eyes.
He has heard my cries,
I can say nothing,my heart sighs.
Russana/2008*
Time moves slowly… Did I hear promises or did I
hear lies…is this love in disguise
Hope begins to die…fear is laid at my feet
I want to run and hide…panic
twists inside.
Darkness falls, I am hidden I am invisible.
I hear the enemy chuckle.
This feels fatal,I am fearful, I cry and call His name
He is here with me.
I don't have to explain.
I give Him my pain
I look into His eyes.
He has heard my cries,
I can say nothing,my heart sighs.
Russana/2008*
Posted on February 15, 2009 at 9:00pm —
WORDS
WORDS
Words of love and kindness go unused
Words that abuse, words that bruise and confuse are used instead
Words I have heard before…Words I dread…
Words that should go unsaid for tears to be unshed
Words that cut to the bone…Words that leave me isolated and alone…
Wondering when it was you turned to stone…
Wondering how I ever thought this was love…
Words that leave me bleeding onto the page…onto life’s stage
Words that make me feel worthless
Words that I don’t want to engage…
That if act on w… Continue
Words of love and kindness go unused
Words that abuse, words that bruise and confuse are used instead
Words I have heard before…Words I dread…
Words that should go unsaid for tears to be unshed
Words that cut to the bone…Words that leave me isolated and alone…
Wondering when it was you turned to stone…
Wondering how I ever thought this was love…
Words that leave me bleeding onto the page…onto life’s stage
Words that make me feel worthless
Words that I don’t want to engage…
That if act on w… Continue
Posted on February 15, 2009 at 8:30pm —
I SAY THAT I AM A WRITER
I wrote this in about 10 minutes...It was for fun but I thought some of you could relate
...Love ya Russana
I say I am a writer and then I do not write
It is a battle of will and
I will always put up a fight!
Sometimes I just sit here as a deer caught in the headlights.
I am a writer so why do I not write I sit here in the moonlight way past midnight and still I do not write...
I am a writer and the page stays white as I lack the insight to become a playwright...
I am a writer yet the page st… Continue
...Love ya Russana
I say I am a writer and then I do not write
It is a battle of will and
I will always put up a fight!
Sometimes I just sit here as a deer caught in the headlights.
I am a writer so why do I not write I sit here in the moonlight way past midnight and still I do not write...
I am a writer and the page stays white as I lack the insight to become a playwright...
I am a writer yet the page st… Continue
Posted on February 12, 2009 at 10:48am — 1 Comment
PAIN + SUFFERING= LOVE?
I have been more than weary lately as I wait on the Lord to fulfill His promises to me... almost 9 years without a real home and I want it to be over. It isn't as if my life was all that easy before...I was battling pain everyday and a family that was out of control because I could no longer keep up with all my disabilities...and I checked out emotionally... I was overwhelmed....I still live with trying to forgive myself for not really being there for them...
I live in fear that all these thing… Continue
I live in fear that all these thing… Continue
Posted on February 12, 2009 at 10:46am —
DYING WITH EYES WIDE OPEN
DRYING WITH EYES WIDE OPEN
I give up, I give in, and please Lord just hold my hand.
Lord, I cannot whisper a breath without you.
You stir my heart and help me stand.
Even in the times, I did not know where I would land.
Oh, Lord this loneliness is tearing out my heart.
Feels like dying with eyes open wide.
Lord, I know I cannot whisper a breath without you. Lord hold me, be by my side.
How do I face this?
Know I have been living for years with these scars
It defined who I became
Instead of who… Continue
I give up, I give in, and please Lord just hold my hand.
Lord, I cannot whisper a breath without you.
You stir my heart and help me stand.
Even in the times, I did not know where I would land.
Oh, Lord this loneliness is tearing out my heart.
Feels like dying with eyes open wide.
Lord, I know I cannot whisper a breath without you. Lord hold me, be by my side.
How do I face this?
Know I have been living for years with these scars
It defined who I became
Instead of who… Continue
Posted on February 9, 2009 at 12:46pm — 1 Comment
Comment Wall (25 comments)
- At 5:21pm on May 10, 2009,
Renee said… - Russana,
Just wanted to drop by & wish you a happy mother's day!
Love & Prayers,
Renee
- At 12:21am on May 10, 2009,
Donna said… - Hi Russana,
I just wanted to wish YOU a
With Love,
Rainbow Donna
I miss YOU!
- At 1:46am on May 4, 2009,
Donna said…
- Hi Russana,
Long time no hear! Miss You and Hope things are Better!
Please drop me a line when you can. I'm getting ready to go for my SS Hearing at the end of the month. Keep me in your prayers for a positive outcome. Also, enjoying being a GLAM~MA to little Phoenix. He is so precious (even if he does cry his little head off all night long) Yep ... the "Little Man" is a Night Owl. Poor Mommy is upstairs now trying to quiet him. Her hubby finally was hired and is on night shift working from 11-7 am. So he doesn't have to deal with crying the night away! Good thing my daughter and I are both night owls ... I try to help as much as I can. I hope your situation is looking up. Your daughter is B~E~A~U~T~I~F~U~L and I bet you are too. I pray God is giving you fresh wisdom and anointing everyday to make wise decisions and He is sending healing mercies to you. Drop me a note when you can.
Praying your days are happier!
Sending Love and Rainbows,
Donna
- At 5:55pm on April 12, 2009,
Renee said…
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- At 6:58pm on March 22, 2009,
PENNI said… - Hello Russana,
I am just dropping by to check UP on you.. YOU have been on my MIND alot lately!!! i miss you! ((( hugs )))). i have been soo tired/hurting and in pain since we brought LANDRUM home, (kristi my daughter's son), my GRANDSON!!! being up/down, doing dishes, laundry, fixing bottles, etc...
I can barely walk.. my feet are hurting so bad!
How are you doing honey???
I really want you to know I am here for you... to talk/share/pray with! Do you have yahoo or AIM? we can talk on IM if you ever want too... my yahoo name is redeemediam@yahoo.com
I love, miss and pray God would send his tender care/mercies around you, minister his love, joy and peace, flood you w/his presence, and shower you with his blessings in Jesus name .. amen
I love you so! PENNI
- At 2:07pm on February 27, 2009,
Donna said…
- Hey there my other Rainbow Friend.
Russana I am worried 'bout you. Haven't heard from you in a while. I'm praying for God to show you his path and make provision for you and yours. May he give you Divine Wisdom.
Love you sweetie and miss you too!
The other Rainbow girl,
Donna
- At 10:38pm on February 24, 2009,
PENNI said…
- Hello Russana.
I hope you dont think I am bugging you, I just want to drop by and say HELLO!!!
and let you know I truly care and love you!!Lately things have been so crazy around her, w/kristi my daughter about her deliver her 1st child,
they are inducing her on Thurs morning @430am...
How are you doing?? I would truly LOVE to hear from you.. to
pray/talk/share/laugh with you!! may you walk uprightly before you and feel sGods power/peace;hope in Jesus name, amen
I love you! I TRULY AM HERE FOR YOU!!
PENNI
- At 1:21am on February 24, 2009,
PENNI said…
- Hey Sweetie!!!
You have been on my mind soooo much lately. I am truly SOOO glad you are here!!!
Russana,
You are very precious to my heart! and if you have any questions???
or need help in ANY way I am here for you to help you!
How are you feeling??
Loosing my Walt has been so very hard on me,, Sometimes
I will be driving down the road and just drive pass the place..
Doing crazy little things. forgetting things.. I talked w/a nurse
tonight who LOST her little young daughter 10 yrs ago, and she
said you NEVER FORGET YOUR HONEY, but, its gets better, and
a BIT easier!
I am gonna look for a support group also!!!
How are you feeling???
I hope to hear from You soon!!!! LET ME KNOW YOU ARE OK!
God is sooo GOOd he is sooooooo GOOD to me!
((((((((( hugs )))))))) love you so!!! penni
- At 2:36pm on February 16, 2009,
MaryGrace said… - Rusanna, I love your new profile photo. It is gorgeous!
- At 10:42pm on February 15, 2009,
PENNI said…
Hello Russana!!!
I am sooooo SORRY for not telling you
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!
I was very sick, that week and then my computer was not working, and had to turn it into the shop, so, I prayed you had a wonderful... HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!
HOw are you doing honey??? I always wanted to come to CA.. so, maybe someday who knows.. I might have to travel out to see you! hehe!! You mean sooo much to me, when you came to my page. I just knew there was something VERY
SPECIAL about "you"!!!
You have a "true heart for God"!!!
SHINE JESUS SHINE OVER RUSSANA!!!
you mean alot to me!
I fell night before last on a cord from the computer, I hit my head,, BIG BUMP!!! and also, think I broke my toe, (middle) it hurts soooo bad!
I can barely walk!!!
I truly know you have a GREAT BIG HEART FOR GOD, and I am sooooooooo glad he brought you here! I know he is gonna see you through this situation you are in... I know he sees all you are walking/going through, I Know he sees every "tear" that falls to your face, and all "shawn" is going thru, I know when we get in situations that look like there is NO HOPE.. LOOK UP.. b/c I believe Father GOd is gonna give you a MIRACLE!!! i believe Father God is gonna PROVIDE FOR YOU... and HELP YOU WALK OUT of this situation...
You are truly a "Gift from GOD to ME!!!
Psalms 46v1
God is our (rusanna@kids) refuge-hiding place and strength a ever present help in trouble....
Joshua 1:9
Be Strong and Courageous
Do not be afraid(russana) neither be thou dismayed
for the Lord is with you (russana@kids) wherever you go
Dear Father,
I come to you in the sweet, precious, name of our Lord Jesus Christ, I thank you so much for this precious lady, Russana, and her kids, I pray Fatherfor Russana, for being brave, for having a heart for you Father God, for being strong and committed to keep walking and keeping her eyes on you Jesus, but, I know sometimes it has to get her down, I pray
you would soo comfort her Father, in send people her way to help her, to put your mighty angels around her, ease her pain, pour your presence so strongly upon her, give her doctors wisdom in taking care of russana, oh jesus, russana loves you so very much, and needs a MIRACLE.. she needs a MIGHTY TOUCH FROM YOU.. Father, give her the spirit of "favor and hope" knowing you are with her, helping her, guiding and directing every step Russana takes. Father, I pray you are with Shawn, soften his heart Father, Draw him unto you, help him in his diabetes, get the money to pay for his meds, his stripes and all he needs, help him while he is in Jail to totally trust you, keep him safe and secue in you. Ipray Psalms 91 over him and russana and his family, SHINE JESUS SHINE over russana!!!
Love her, help her, Open her heart and we thank you for
OPENING>>>>>.. up the windows heaven.. and giving her a blessing that she cannot even hold.. in jesus name! amen
I love you russana! where are you now????
I am always here to talk/share/pray together, if you wanna talk on phone send me your number!
Love, prayers and (((((((( hugs ))))))))))))) PENNI
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When we are going through things in your life you feel like you are hurting and you cannot take another step... you feel like all you are going through is so hard, the pain is too much.. you heart is hurting so bad, you wanna give up, you have so much pain/suffering... life hurts..
Father God says, CAST YOUR CARES UPON ME, FOR I WILL SUSTIAN YOU.. Father, GOD will carry you when you cannot walk.. he wants you to TRUST Him completely............ Shine Jesus Shine upon YOU!!!
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The Consecration of Spiritual Power
If I dwell on the Cross of Christ, I do not simply become inwardly devout and solely interested in my own holiness— I become strongly focused on Jesus Christ’s interests. Our Lord was not a recluse nor a fanatical holy man practicing self-denial. He did not physically cut Himself off from society, but He wasThe Focal Point of Spiritual Power
If you want to know the power of God (that is, the resurrection life of Jesus) in your human flesh, you must dwell on the tragedy of God. Break away from your personal concern over your own spiritual condition, and with a completely open spirit consider the tragedy of God. Instantly© 2009 Created by PENNI on Ning. Create a Ning Network!
